Thursday, September 30, 2010

Wish List

You know ,when you develop a chronic illness,whether its Dysautonomia,POTS,Lupus,RA,MS,or countless others,and you become ill you think about the good old days.I discussed this with my best friend Ash the other day,and we both agreed that we take so much for granted as healthy people.When you become ill,all those little things we take for granted,taking a long hot shower,standing under the hot water forever,blow drying our hair and putting on make up,cleaning your house until it's gleaming,Taking a long leisurely walk down the road,or pushing your little girl on the swing as high as you can ,driving a car.These are all now on my wish list.Things I am not guaranteed,but things that I wish to have back so bad.It's amazing as a healthy person what you take for granted.I am as guilty of doing it as anyone else.I would push my body and push it even further to do those extra things,now I am just begging to be able to do the things on my list.I want a good family vacation to Florida and Disney World,and I want to feel like walking all over the park,and riding all the rides without being wore out.Good news for me,is that my Propranolol is still working,and I am still taking iron tablets for the anemia,but I believe in my heart that I will be able to do some of the things on my list,and if I am extra blessed,I will be able to do all of the things on my list,once my body recovers from being ill for so long.I think my wish list fills my heart with happiness and optimism that this is not the end of the road for me,but just a curve.